And Here We Go...

Beginnings are fun, but they also suck, don't they? Part of me wants to skip to the middle, where at least I feel like I know what Im doing. Im writing this at 10PM when my phone is telling me to get ready for bed... So much for being responsible, but everyone has to start somewhere...

So what am I doing here? Im asking myself the same question as I attempt to convey my answer to you, simultaneously. Part of it is a desire for authenticity, another part a method of mental healing and expressing myself, another yet an idea my mother had after a nice long conversation at the local Mexican restaurant... In a nutshell, i'm still figuring it out.

The last time I started a blog i was 18, nearly a decade ago, when I looked like this...

So much has changed since then. I was debating on wether or not to start this new blog or continue my old one. Obviously you see I decided to start a new one.

Before when I used to write, I wrote on intellectual topics and never put any personality into my writing. I wrote about issues, not about my life or experience. Issues are important - but what good was discussing an issue that I had no experience or authority in? Even if my words were true and made logical sense, was I really conveying to the reader that I cared about them? Honestly, I wasn't mature enough to ask myself that question. Instead of coming along side people as Jesus would have wanted me to do, I impersonally hurled spears of truth through my computer screen not considering the reader's point of view or feelings on the topic.

This time around, I want to write differently. Most of the time I will literally just sharing some of the thoughts on my life and what I experience. But, honestly, in talking about my own life and what God decides to do with it, I earnestly hope you the reader can glean something from it. Maybe a struggle in my life reminds me of your own, or maybe a solution I share will give you inspiration. But, then again maybe It will just make you laugh internally for a second or two. In any case, thank you for even reading this far!

Until next time...

Josh Buel